lets talk about falling off the deep end. where is that ledge right before you fall? is the decision to jump unavoidable? making a leap not of faith but of blind chance of some sort of outcome to alleviate your mind. by drowning your own kids is it possible to predict your own death? is finding your kids face down in a murky pond a trigger leading you to fall? making decisions all though hard are much easier then the non existent outcome of nothing. im prone to snap judgments. getting washed away with the storm. when the flood comes i will be carried away. will i be alert or will i lose my way? most likely both.
