up in the air

sometimes movies hit home so hard that it hurts. watching this movie about a man who fires people for a living got me thinking. in my life iv been fired 8 times. 8 times iv sat in a chair and been told i was no longer needed, and 8 times my reactions have varied but the end result was always the same. to get my point across im going to cross reference this to a relationship with a women. being fired is like being broken up with out of the blue. at first you are mad and then you descend in to a self reflective loathing that ends with a question. that question is whats wrong with me? the older i get the better i take the "being let go" talk. by now im a old pro, but just don't dump a pile of bullshit in my lap and tell me you are doing me a favor. make that an old bitter pro. i could go in to some of the reasons why iv been fired ranging from attitude to performance to lack of work. but my favorite is being fired over the phone to avoid a outburst on my part because of all that jail time i didn't do. if that does not make sense try hearing it for real and making them explain.
"what do you mean the jail time i have served, IV never been to jail" "it says here Nathan you did 20 days" " is that right" i said " read a little further for me." "tell me anywhere in that sentence does it say the word suspended?" " ummmmmmmm yes i do believe it does say that" i asked her one more question before she ended our chat via telaphone. "what do you think that means" "nathan i am not a lawyer i wouldn't know" "it means I DID NOT GO TO JAIL" i got one last paragraph out of her before she hung up on me. " ether way usauna does not hire individuals with criminal histories, and we need you to drop your key card off at the front desk when you pick up your check"
im not going to lie it was a shit job answering phones that in reality i didn't even want. i was only there for a week, but it still felt the same. what do you do when you are told you are not good enough to answer phones? i wish she would have texted me instead but im sure that would have been unprofessional.